/Dating & Resilience phase 2

Today in an long list off events that are constantly changing.. I wanted to share part of a chapter of my book - which is now finished - but before I press the print button I want to make sure everything is aligned.. And there are some things that are not ready yet… I want everything to be aligned and fixed… hence the 17th flight this year tomorrow ..

“ What is a legacy? It's planting seeds in a garden you never get to see.”

- Lin-Manuel Miranda  

I open my eyes. I always wake early because the sun lights our suite in the morning. When my eyes scan the room, I see high heels, lingerie and an empty bottle of champagne, and in a split second it hits me She said yes.

When I fully open my eyes there are warm lips kissing me, and it just feels surreal. After years of fights, moving on from broken relationships and everything else called life, I have finalized this chapter. I’m in a solid relationship.

After an unforgettable morning of all the things that newly engaged people do, I decide to go to the restaurant and get a coffee while my fiancé is changing. It’s the 25th of December and Christmas lights are shining brightly everywhere in Paris. Paris really is the city of love. I order a croissant au chocolate and a double espresso and open my laptop. There are three messages:

-       Urgent – agreement.

-       Urgent – Rejected Term Sheet.

-       And a message from my Ex. “we are very upset you are not spending Christmas here.”

You know the feeling when you’re kicked off a cloud and run into a brick wall. I guess this is it. At this time I want to go back to my tent in “victimville.” It is a place in my head where I bury myself when I want to play the victim. I normally visit this village a few hours, or a day, but today I want to unpack my suitcases and permanently move in. I am seeking confirmation of my sad moment with others. I browse the contact list on my phone for anyone who is willing to chat. It’s the 25th of December. Nobody will. So I guess It is time to battle my own affairs again, get off the cloud of love and “Deal with it” again. 

After reading all the “Urgent” emails, I guess what sticks in my mind is, how urgent are these emails? What is really happening here? The message from my ex is really the most upsetting. Why don’t I spend Christmas with her and my son? This is a loaded question, which goes back a lot in time, but also into the future. Two of the three questions are relating to legacy... your spouse and your son.

So, let’s cut the crap and get to the bottom of it.

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this chapter leads to an different ending in the book then you think but the resilience is very much actual.

It became clear to me that I am not ready… not ready to publish, not ready to let go not ready to be completely healed..

Again whilst being really proud of the small team off people climbing mountains I think that there is a lot to learn ..

But I also wanted to point out that we all should be grateful for each day as I know that one of the persons who I am meeting tomorrow has cancer .. and is battling day by day .. and I am grateful for the people in my life..

For now .. lets get the shit completely out of the way and build a new chapter.. with old elements and new elements..

I had a great weekend with some friends, I have a business partner who travel’s with me and things aren’t bad.. But sometimes you just want to crawl in bed.. with a teddy bear..

Yes, it's perfectly normal for adults to be emotionally attached to stuffed animals, especially if they were used as transitional objects during their childhood. As transitional objects, they provided safety and comfort, which could improve the well-being of your psychological state as an adult

Monday is one of those days… for different reasons.. tm .. we kick gear again..

Romano.